Though I know that in crisis times, life more resembles a roller coaster, I think I convinced myself that after the first chemo treatment I'd have a steady uphill climb toward feeling better - until the next treatment. Nope. Though Friday was a pretty good day when I could eat some and actually enjoy it, … Continue reading So the roller coaster begins
Month: September 2011
Port and first chemo
The last couple of days kind of run together, but I can give an overview. My sister took me to the surgery to get my port on Wednesday. I'm a difficult "stick," and the first nurse didn't find a good vein for the IV and had to move it around and then give up. You … Continue reading Port and first chemo
Settling some. . . .maybe
I was less tense when I woke up today than any day since the breast cancer diagnosis. Is it because my sister is here? Because I'm finally getting used to the idea that I have cancer and all that goes with it? Because prayer and meditation are changing me? Maybe it's all of the above … Continue reading Settling some. . . .maybe
Waiting
I find myself doing a lot of waiting lately. Waiting for a doctor's appointment or a test/scan or test/scan results or to hear from a doctor's office or for the pre-surgery or for having the port put in or for the first chemo. I try to stay in the now, but it's hard. Even if … Continue reading Waiting
Scared sacred & laughter & tears
I remember years ago I was at an English teachers' conference in Chicago where Nikki Giovanni was a speaker. She had recently been diagnosed with cancer, and she said that she had learned that a good day is one in which you experience both laughter and tears. I thought I understood what she meant then. … Continue reading Scared sacred & laughter & tears
Cancer treatments and waiting
Tomorrow I have an echo cardiogram to make sure my heart is okay for the chemotherapy treatments and a PET scan to see if the cancer is anywhere else. The PET scan procedure is a long process of waiting an hour or more for the radioactive injection to go throughout the body. I'll have to … Continue reading Cancer treatments and waiting
Breast cancer diagnosis and the new path I’m taking
I chose eddies and currents as my blog name because I see life as a stream or river. Well, I'm not in an eddy right now, but instead the current has swept me up, and I'm on my way to some new place. Less than two weeks ago, I found a lump in my left … Continue reading Breast cancer diagnosis and the new path I’m taking
eddies and currents 