Too often I try to figure everything out, to anticipate all of the possibilities.
And too often those possibilities seem negative. I think of all the things that could go wrong. All of the things that could be bad. All of the things I don’t want.
And I focus on scarcity instead of abundance. I worry that there won’t be enough. That there isn’t enough to go around.
So I’m trying an experiment.
I’m making a concerted effort not to look too far ahead. To look only at my next step or the next – and not try to look too far down the path or around the bend.
And I’m making a concerted effort to think positively, with my heart open. To do what I feel called to do, what makes me feel the most alive. Not to search out negatives and dwell on them. Not to worry about scarcity.
But instead to envision what positive results could manifest if I pay attention and follow where I’m led.
To trust that I live in an abundant universe. That we all do. That there is enough for me. For you. For everyone.
Yes, I have a specific project in mind. I’m following the markers for it. (I’ll share more in detail later as it takes shape).
I’m finding that if I don’t try to plan too much but still am active and involved, markers do indeed appear.
I received two or three pretty significant markers in the past couple of weeks. . . some validation that I can trust following them.
Yet even with validation, I find it’s hard to let go of trying to control, to let go of worrying, to let go of negativity, to let go of a scarcity mentality.
But just because it’s hard doesn’t mean I can’t do it. I just have to be aware, to notice when I feel and think negatively, when I start worrying and trying to control, when I’m afraid that there’s not enough to go around.
To notice when my heart space starts closing.
And to choose opening instead.
And to choose to trust in abundance. . . thirtyfold, sixtyfold, even one hundredfold abundance!
I choose to follow the markers today. And tomorrow. And the next day.
And to trust where they lead.
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