Because I realize now that there is never a time of total escape from some type of "problem" that seemingly hangs over my head.
I remembering longing for anything that felt "normal." I wanted to feel better physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. And I wanted all of that normal immediately.
We've probably all been there. Your life is perking along. You're feeling "normal" - perhaps you even think your life is "good." And then something unexpected tilts your world. It might be a death, or something health-related, or someone tells you something that changes everything. And suddenly all that seemed "normal" five minutes ago looks … Continue reading A little post about welcoming fear
All of us have been through some kind of wounding situation that put us on a healing path. It might have been a badly sprained ankle, a deep cut that required lots of stitches, surgery of some sort, a heart attack, the death of a friend or loved one, a divorce, cancer, a lost friendship, … Continue reading Why does healing take SO LONG?
I start to feel panicky. I'm sweating. And I have to calm myself again.
What is it about September and cancer diagnosis for me? I got a breast cancer diagnosis in September 2011 - and this September it's skin cancer. A couple of weeks ago, my dermatologist and his assistant both said the place above my elbow was a basal cell carcinoma. The tech scraped it out and sent … Continue reading Biopsies and Prescience: Cutting Cancer
April 24th is a kind of birthday for me. It's the day I completed breast cancer treatments. And fittingly, this year's local Relay for Life is on April 25th. So I'm looking at this year's Relay event as a "birthday" celebration of my third year as a cancer-free person. But I'm not only feeling celebration … Continue reading An Upcoming “Birth”day: Three Years After Cancer Treatments
What makes you afraid? What makes your palms sweat, your stomach hurt, your heart seize up? When I was little, I was afraid of witches, especially the Wicked Witch of the West. I was afraid of bad grades. Of going to the dentist. Of speaking in public. Of my parents' deaths. Now, as an adult, … Continue reading More stories: FEAR
And in the midst of that I've overlooked beautiful sunrises. I've gulped down coffee and food while thinking of totally unrelated situations. I've worried about things that are beyond my control.
I've forgotten too much of what I learned on my cancer journey.
Just a quick post today to acknowledge the three-year anniversary of my breast cancer diagnosis. I was terrified that day three years ago. I numbly went through an MRI and PET scan that week (or the next. It all ran together). And then port surgery and right into chemo for eight weeks. And a lumpectomy … Continue reading Another anniversary