On this day at this time (December 5 at 1 PM) I was home or about to be home after a breast lumpectomy and node removal. I don't recall ever wondering during that time whether I'd still be around in a decade. Even though that wasn't a thought back then, here I am now, 10 … Continue reading Celebrating 10 years cancer-free
Ten years ago today I received a breast cancer diagnosis. I thought I'd reflect on that day today and have a kind of celebration. But that's not what I'm feeling. I'm feeling a shift today, a letting go of that time 10 years ago. A letting go of the heavy energies of that cancer journey. … Continue reading A Shift: A New Decade Post-cancer
If you know me, you know I enjoy looking for insights from dreams. But I've been on a kind of dream hiatus, having few memorable dreams in the last several months. That has fit right in with this pandemic limbo time, which I started pretty early. Last fall, in fact, I was starting to withdraw, … Continue reading How a dream gave me insight into a new doctor
Because I realize now that there is never a time of total escape from some type of "problem" that seemingly hangs over my head.
I remembering longing for anything that felt "normal." I wanted to feel better physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. And I wanted all of that normal immediately.
The COVID-19 isolation has a lot of us feeling anxious and on edge . . . and I want to share one of my strategies to calm myself. If you've known me well for any length of time, you'll be surprised at my answer. For too long I resisted doing daily stretching or yoga. I'm … Continue reading Feeling anxious? Stretch your body!
I'll begin by saying that—for me—acupuncture is nearly a miracle. I had a six-week course of weekly treatments this summer, and my painful right shoulder regained mobility along with much less pain and arthritis cracking. So when my back hurt more and more, I figured acupuncture was surely worth a try. But I had no … Continue reading Acupuncture: “Muscle moves bone . . . “
Annually I ask for a word for my New Year, usually on New Year's Day. I follow this prompt from Abbey of the Arts: “give me a word” we ask – something to nourish me, challenge me, a word I can wrestle with and grow into. The word which chooses us has the potential to transform … Continue reading My word for New Year 2020
Even though I typically feel some sadness or melancholy around my birthday, that feeling caught me unprepared this morning. After all, it's a clear-blue-sky sunny day after a night of thunderstorms. Everything feels clearer, sharper. More alive. Except me. It's my birthday week. A reminder that I'm aging quickly, that life has gotten harder in … Continue reading Do you ever feel sad around your birthday? I do.
Even if we aren't conscious of these traumaversaries, they have an impact on us. Because—on some level—we remember the pain and connect it with that time of year.