As many of you know, I follow these instructions to let a word for each year find me: In ancient times, wise men and women fled out into the desert to find a place where they could be fully present to the divine and to their own inner struggles at work within them. The desert … Continue reading My Word for New Year 2023
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Breast cancer Round 2: Birthday update
Here on my December 6th birthday I look back at the past few months of my latest cancer journey. At this point I'm almost three months post bilateral mastectomy. I've been taking the aromatase inhibitor (Anastrozole, brand name Armidex) for about a month. I'm not sure if I'm having side effects or not. They're the … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Birthday update
Breast cancer Round 2: Positive news!
Today is six weeks to the day after my bilateral mastectomy, and it's the day I saw my medical oncologist to find out the results of the OncotypeDX Breast Recurrence Score Report. When my medical oncologist came in the exam room, her first words were "Good news!!" That's what I was hoping to hear. I … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Positive news!
Breast cancer Round 2: More waiting
Well, the Trickster is at work, and I have another opportunity to let go of expectations. My appointment tomorrow with my medical oncologist has been pushed back a week as we wait for the oncotype genome testing results. Today is Monday, and I was supposed to see my medical oncologist tomorrow because she expected the … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: More waiting
Breast cancer Round 2: Meeting with my medical oncologist
I saw my medical oncologist this morning. She was more concerned than my surgeon about the tumor and the pathology so far. More extensive pathology will give answers. That more-extensive pathology will take two to three weeks. My medical oncologist's concern is that the tumor was larger than expected (and therefore in a range of … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Meeting with my medical oncologist
Breast cancer Round 2: Mx2 surgery day tomorrow
I'm almost there. Bilateral mastectomy tomorrow. Mastectomy x 2. Today was the sentinel node shot to show my surgeon which lymph nodes to remove tomorrow for pathology. Last time I had breast cancer that shot was the day of my lumpectomy. It was the most painful thing I'd ever experienced at that point. But today … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Mx2 surgery day tomorrow
Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
You know how when you get concerning news you can go straight into anxiety? Well, that's been my rollercoaster for a couple of months. It started with a concerning EKG at my cardiologist's office in February. She set me up for an echocardiogram to see if there was something that needs attention. Plus she wanted … Continue reading Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
My Word for 2022
So what's my word for 2022? It's a verb, one that seems obvious for the pandemic.
Celebrating 10 years cancer-free
On this day at this time (December 5 at 1 PM) I was home or about to be home after a breast lumpectomy and node removal. I don't recall ever wondering during that time whether I'd still be around in a decade. Even though that wasn't a thought back then, here I am now, 10 … Continue reading Celebrating 10 years cancer-free
A Shift: A New Decade Post-cancer
Ten years ago today I received a breast cancer diagnosis. I thought I'd reflect on that day today and have a kind of celebration. But that's not what I'm feeling. I'm feeling a shift today, a letting go of that time 10 years ago. A letting go of the heavy energies of that cancer journey. … Continue reading A Shift: A New Decade Post-cancer
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