Too often in my life when things are hard, I just want them to be OVER. That's because waiting times can be difficult. I can imagine all kinds of scenarios. And in the past I've had trouble getting negative, worrying thoughts out of my mind. But this time, to my surprise, I'm doing so much … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: The liminal space of waiting
Breast Cancer Round 2: My surgery decision (and more)
If you just want the short version, here it is: I've chosen to have a double mastectomy, no reconstruction. If you'd like to know more, keep reading . . . My decision is two-faceted, the rational and the intuitive. The rational: The percentages of having cancer return are the lowest with a double mastectomy. If … Continue reading Breast Cancer Round 2: My surgery decision (and more)
Breast Cancer: Round 2
If you'd told me even a year ago that I'd be happy to get a cancer diagnosis, I'd have told you that you were crazy. Yet here I am . . . . because it's not the nasty cancer version I had before. A routine 3D mammogram on August 5th looked suspicious so the radiologist … Continue reading Breast Cancer: Round 2
Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
You know how when you get concerning news you can go straight into anxiety? Well, that's been my rollercoaster for a couple of months. It started with a concerning EKG at my cardiologist's office in February. She set me up for an echocardiogram to see if there was something that needs attention. Plus she wanted … Continue reading Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
My Word for 2022
So what's my word for 2022? It's a verb, one that seems obvious for the pandemic.
Celebrating 10 years cancer-free
On this day at this time (December 5 at 1 PM) I was home or about to be home after a breast lumpectomy and node removal. I don't recall ever wondering during that time whether I'd still be around in a decade. Even though that wasn't a thought back then, here I am now, 10 … Continue reading Celebrating 10 years cancer-free
It’s all about the letting go
All I have to do is trust, just as autumn trees do.
A Shift: A New Decade Post-cancer
Ten years ago today I received a breast cancer diagnosis. I thought I'd reflect on that day today and have a kind of celebration. But that's not what I'm feeling. I'm feeling a shift today, a letting go of that time 10 years ago. A letting go of the heavy energies of that cancer journey. … Continue reading A Shift: A New Decade Post-cancer
Can doing laundry be an exercise in mindfulness?
Meticulous about washing clothes? You're practicing mindfulness!
Mother’s Day reflections: Three generations of photographs
This Mother's Day has me thinking about my lineage of mothers, from my mother to her mother to her mother. And also my father's mother and her mother.