I'm in a funk today. I have been all weekend. And I know why. It's because tomorrow I have a mammogram. I'm at the two-year mark after my breast cancer diagnosis, and that means checking to be sure I'm still cancer-free. And that also means anxiety, which is manifesting for me this weekend as a … Continue reading The Two Year Mark: In a Funk
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Stuck
Lately, I've been feeling stuck. In a kind of limbo, a do-nothing, go-nowhere kind of place. Though I'm continuing to heal more and more from my breast cancer journey, though I have more energy, a clearer mind, and less pain, I don't know where I'm going. What's next for me??? I have all kinds of … Continue reading Stuck
Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 4
So when will I be "back"? Able to have a full week of meetings and activities and not be worn out? I'm certainly grateful for the returning energy, but my last chemo was on Groundhog Day, and my last radiation was at the end of April. It's August. That seems a long time to wait … Continue reading Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 4
Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 3
One thing I really missed during my cancer treatments was my daily rituals. Until I went through chemo, I didn't realize how important those rituals were to me. How they gave my days structure, stability, comfort, the illusion of control. And how I'd miss them when chemo grabbed me and wouldn't let go. A morning … Continue reading Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 3
Well. . .
well/wel/ (from Google) Adverb :In a good or satisfactory way: "the whole team played well". Adjective: In good health; free or recovered from illness. Exclamation: Used to express a range of emotions including surprise, anger, resignation, or relief: "Well, really! The manners of some people!". Noun: A shaft sunk into the ground to obtain water, … Continue reading Well. . .
Cancer treatments and waiting
Tomorrow I have an echo cardiogram to make sure my heart is okay for the chemotherapy treatments and a PET scan to see if the cancer is anywhere else. The PET scan procedure is a long process of waiting an hour or more for the radioactive injection to go throughout the body. I'll have to … Continue reading Cancer treatments and waiting
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