"Suffering has a noble purpose: the evolution of consciousness and the burning up of the ego." Eckhart Tolle Today has been a day of discouragement and resentment for me. I'd hoped to enjoy today, the day before another round of chemo, but instead I found myself mired in negative emotions. My mind understands that having … Continue reading Janus and another chemo treatment
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Wearing away rough edges
This breast cancer journey has been full of the unexpected. The latest is cellulitis, which has postponed until next Thursday the chemo treatment that I was to have yesterday. That postponement pushes everything back a week, so this journey of treatments will end a week later. I'm pleased to say that I'm not upset about … Continue reading Wearing away rough edges
Rough week after Chemo #4. . . and grace
I'm still learning not to have expectations. I'd hoped that by now, over a week after Chemo #4, I'd be starting to feel better, stronger, but I haven't. I can tell that the thrombosis is improving, but I've felt especially weak and have felt faint several times the past couple of days. My blood counts … Continue reading Rough week after Chemo #4. . . and grace
Seeing docs & last chemo of this round
The first of the good news is that I had my last chemo of this round and am feeling better this morning. I had a power surge at 5:30 AM and couldn't sleep, so I finally got up. It's unpredictable as to how each chemo affects me, other than every evening after the chemo I … Continue reading Seeing docs & last chemo of this round
Feeling better – and that means. . .
If I'm feeling lots better, almost back to my old self, then that means another chemo treatment is imminent. Yep, I have one tomorrow. This time I'm hoping to be less tense and more in my body so that I can visualize my microscopic team killing the cancer and cleaning it up and healing the … Continue reading Feeling better – and that means. . .
Port and first chemo
The last couple of days kind of run together, but I can give an overview. My sister took me to the surgery to get my port on Wednesday. I'm a difficult "stick," and the first nurse didn't find a good vein for the IV and had to move it around and then give up. You … Continue reading Port and first chemo
Waiting
I find myself doing a lot of waiting lately. Waiting for a doctor's appointment or a test/scan or test/scan results or to hear from a doctor's office or for the pre-surgery or for having the port put in or for the first chemo. I try to stay in the now, but it's hard. Even if … Continue reading Waiting
