Finally, a breakthrough! I could have written that last week, but my superstitious side didn't want to jinx the progress. And my logical side said to wait to be sure it was lasting. So far I'm not jinxed and the breakthrough does seem to be lasting. I'm at nine weeks and a few days after … Continue reading Double Knee Replacement: 9 weeks out
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A birthday lesson on letting go of expectations
The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Men / Gang aft agley (The best-laid plans of mice and men / Go oft awry) - Robert Burns Today is my 58th birthday, the one that matches my birth year of 1958. And for the first time since I was 17, I'm in the Coastal Empire on my birthday, specifically, … Continue reading A birthday lesson on letting go of expectations
The Curse of What “Should Be”
I suppose it's human nature to create a script of the way it "should be." You know, as in: "If I exercise and eat healthy, I'll be healthy. And I'll die in my 90s or even later, a happy little old woman." And: "If I do well in school and work hard, my life will be successful. Which means … Continue reading The Curse of What “Should Be”
When I want worries and deadlines magically to go away
It started when I was in the first grade. The waiting and the dreading. I'd take a breath and try to hold it until the whatever-it-was-that-I-dreaded was over. I think my first deadline worry and held breath had to do with the end of the six-weeks grading period and the issuing of report cards. I … Continue reading When I want worries and deadlines magically to go away
There is NO “waiting”
You'd think I'd have learned this during my cancer journey. There is no "waiting." There is only NOW. "Waiting" takes me out of the NOW. And waiting necessarily needs expectation. Another thing I should have gotten beyond, should have learned to let go of, during my cancer journey. Have no expectations. These last weeks … Continue reading There is NO “waiting”
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