Tomorrow I'll experience a bilateral TKR - total knee replacement, both knees. So I'm T minus 1 day . . . and counting. It's been a journey to get here. Since the end of July when I got the bone-on-bone diagnosis, I've been doing stretches every morning and working out with weights two or three days … Continue reading T minus 1 day
As I said in earlier posts, I'm sure I learned more during my semester of teaching middle school than my students did. And a lot - probably most - of what I learned was about myself. In this post, I'll share one of the "good" things I learned. I learned that I am a great deal more … Continue reading My Middle School Experiment: What I Learned, Part 2. Less ego, more patience.
This middle school teaching job is a way for me to measure my progress, to see if the work I've done on myself is bearing fruit. To see if I can let go of each day when it's over. And to see if I can greet each new day with a positive attitude.
What makes letting go so hard for me? Too often in my life I've chosen to hang onto things too long. Material things as well as thoughts and ideas and even jobs. On my silent retreat two weeks ago, I saw examples of destruction and construction, saw how letting go - to the point of … Continue reading Destruct and construct
You'd think I'd have learned this during my cancer journey. There is no "waiting." There is only NOW. "Waiting" takes me out of the NOW. And waiting necessarily needs expectation. Another thing I should have gotten beyond, should have learned to let go of, during my cancer journey. Have no expectations. These last weeks … Continue reading There is NO “waiting”
The pain I've been experiencing lately is making me ponder. Do you think the pain involved in healing a wound is the same as that of receiving the wound? I've been having pain all over my radiation area. Shooting pains, just like when the radiation began. Friday at my appointment, I asked my medical oncologist (the … Continue reading Pain of healing = pain of wounding?