I'm ending this year so tired, really tired, very tired, but in a lovely way. Not in the so-tired-and-weak way of February right after the end of chemo when I didn't have the energy to walk to the mailbox. No, a different tired. One that says I'm still not recovered from eight weeks of chemo … Continue reading Endings and births: Goodbye 2012, Welcome 2013
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Cotton and Commerce and Enjoying Savannah
I'm back in Savannah for a visit. This time I took one of my old routes to get here. I-75 to I-20 east, then mostly state and county roads through Warrenton, Wrens, Waynesboro, Sardis, Sylvania, Springfield, Rincon, and finally, Savannah. That's the route I used to take to my parents' house (well, except the Rincon … Continue reading Cotton and Commerce and Enjoying Savannah
Still processing
This seems to be a time in my life for processing - the breast cancer journey, bringing Sahkanaga home, my life in general. Processing always takes me a long time. I suppose ultimately it takes a lifetime. I'll begin with Sahkanaga. The movie did very well in Chattanooga. Last weekend it played to a pretty … Continue reading Still processing
Broken
This weekend, I feel broken. When I think on the last year, I know I am broken. I am not who I was last August. My upcoming mammogram tomorrow along with the reminders of this season are all making me reflect on this past year. What I feel now is brokenness. When I look in … Continue reading Broken
Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 1
On Monday, I had surgery to have my port (or portacath) out. That event was a marker in my breast cancer treatment path but also a reminder of the journey and its beginning, the advent of the terror and wonder. Getting ready for surgery was much easier this time than back in September when I … Continue reading Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 1
Birthday postsurgery
Today is my 53rd birthday, which makes me think of the passage of time and how my perceptions have changed. At my last birthday, I had no idea I'd have breast cancer and would be having surgery the day before my next birthday. But that's what life has brought me. I'm learning not to try … Continue reading Birthday postsurgery
Shrunk tumor and lumpectomy
I saw my surgeon today in preparation for my surgery on Monday. He could hardly find the tumor because it has shrunk so much. He was excited that the chemo has done so well in shrinking the tumor that was chestnut-sized in September. I told him it was chemo working with lots of prayers and … Continue reading Shrunk tumor and lumpectomy
Almost like a vacation
I'm starting three days of no appointments, no needles, no new chemo. Three days when I can rest and relax and get ready for the next appointments. It's almost like a short vacation, a three-day weekend. I'm still weak but feeling a little stronger each day. I've not felt faint since Friday, and I can … Continue reading Almost like a vacation
Seeing docs & last chemo of this round
The first of the good news is that I had my last chemo of this round and am feeling better this morning. I had a power surge at 5:30 AM and couldn't sleep, so I finally got up. It's unpredictable as to how each chemo affects me, other than every evening after the chemo I … Continue reading Seeing docs & last chemo of this round
eddies and currents 