Next Tuesday I'm set for surgery. A complete hysterectomy. And what I'm feeling is paradoxical. I feel both fear and trust. Both swirl in my thoughts and feelings. How to be present to that? I know that being present is essential. The last big surgery I had was a little over five years ago, a … Continue reading Surgery: Fear and Trust
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Why does healing take SO LONG?
All of us have been through some kind of wounding situation that put us on a healing path. It might have been a badly sprained ankle, a deep cut that required lots of stitches, surgery of some sort, a heart attack, the death of a friend or loved one, a divorce, cancer, a lost friendship, … Continue reading Why does healing take SO LONG?
Destruct and construct
What makes letting go so hard for me? Too often in my life I've chosen to hang onto things too long. Material things as well as thoughts and ideas and even jobs. On my silent retreat two weeks ago, I saw examples of destruction and construction, saw how letting go - to the point of … Continue reading Destruct and construct
Am I secure?
Do you ever feel completely secure? Lately, I've been pondering security. . . . what makes me feel secure, safe, comfortable. Some of this pondering has to do with my coming to the end of a cancer journey, but it's also connected with my quitting my "secure" teaching job in 2008, a job from which … Continue reading Am I secure?
eddies and currents 