One thing I really missed during my cancer treatments was my daily rituals. Until I went through chemo, I didn't realize how important those rituals were to me. How they gave my days structure, stability, comfort, the illusion of control. And how I'd miss them when chemo grabbed me and wouldn't let go. A morning … Continue reading Terrible and Wonderful: Chapter 3
A nosebleed this morning welcomed me to my day. Just one of the many chemo side effects I've experienced on this breast cancer healing journey. My last chemo is scheduled for Thursday, and though I do not look forward to this last round of side effects, I do look forward to no more chemo. The … Continue reading The End of the Litany of Chemo Side Effects Draws Near
In this breast cancer chemotherapy cycle, when I start to feel better that means another chemo treatment is imminent. As in tomorrow. Today I'm not achy and can actually taste food (somewhat) without a chemical taste in my mouth and don't have mouth sores and don't feel generally rotten. Tomorrow morning all of that will … Continue reading If I’m feeling better, it must be time for another chemo treatment
"Suffering has a noble purpose: the evolution of consciousness and the burning up of the ego." Eckhart Tolle Today has been a day of discouragement and resentment for me. I'd hoped to enjoy today, the day before another round of chemo, but instead I found myself mired in negative emotions. My mind understands that having … Continue reading Janus and another chemo treatment
The second round of chemo is Taxotere, and though the first couple of days were much easier than the previous chemo, Day 3 is a tough one. I feel as if I have the flu. Achy joints, headache, general malaise. But at least I'm not nauseated. It's just what I've been saying all along - … Continue reading Day 3, Round 2 chemo. Ugh.