Because I realize now that there is never a time of total escape from some type of "problem" that seemingly hangs over my head.
It started when I was in the first grade. The waiting and the dreading. I'd take a breath and try to hold it until the whatever-it-was-that-I-dreaded was over. I think my first deadline worry and held breath had to do with the end of the six-weeks grading period and the issuing of report cards. I … Continue reading When I want worries and deadlines magically to go away
You'd think I'd have learned this during my cancer journey. There is no "waiting." There is only NOW. "Waiting" takes me out of the NOW. And waiting necessarily needs expectation. Another thing I should have gotten beyond, should have learned to let go of, during my cancer journey. Have no expectations. These last weeks … Continue reading There is NO “waiting”
"Waiting" is an appropriate title this time, don't you think? I've not posted in almost two weeks. So "waiting" seems apt. That's what I've been doing. Waiting. Our society isn't much for waiting. We of drive-through fast food. We of the time-is-money attitude. We of no time to wait for anything anywhere. We're people of … Continue reading Waiting