I was a little afraid to ask for my word for this New Year. Last year my word was "support" and ended up being very literal as my left knee replacement bottom part shifted so much that I had to use a walker in June. I had a knee replacement revision surgery on July 25th, … Continue reading My Word for 2024
Contemplative
Surgery tomorrow. Christmas in July. Bah humbug!
Tomorrow at 11am is surgery day. Tuesday July 25th. Left knee replacement revision. Oops, change that to 12:30pm. I just got a call. Wait, another call. Back to 11am. Sheesh! I was SUPER grouchy when those calls came through. I think the source of my grouchiness is fear. I try to take it one hour … Continue reading Surgery tomorrow. Christmas in July. Bah humbug!
My Word for New Year 2023
As many of you know, I follow these instructions to let a word for each year find me: In ancient times, wise men and women fled out into the desert to find a place where they could be fully present to the divine and to their own inner struggles at work within them. The desert … Continue reading My Word for New Year 2023
Breast cancer Round 2: Birthday update
Here on my December 6th birthday I look back at the past few months of my latest cancer journey. At this point I'm almost three months post bilateral mastectomy. I've been taking the aromatase inhibitor (Anastrozole, brand name Armidex) for about a month. I'm not sure if I'm having side effects or not. They're the … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Birthday update
Breast cancer Round 2: Positive news!
Today is six weeks to the day after my bilateral mastectomy, and it's the day I saw my medical oncologist to find out the results of the OncotypeDX Breast Recurrence Score Report. When my medical oncologist came in the exam room, her first words were "Good news!!" That's what I was hoping to hear. I … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Positive news!
Breast cancer Round 2: More waiting
Well, the Trickster is at work, and I have another opportunity to let go of expectations. My appointment tomorrow with my medical oncologist has been pushed back a week as we wait for the oncotype genome testing results. Today is Monday, and I was supposed to see my medical oncologist tomorrow because she expected the … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: More waiting
Breast cancer Round 2: Meeting with my medical oncologist
I saw my medical oncologist this morning. She was more concerned than my surgeon about the tumor and the pathology so far. More extensive pathology will give answers. That more-extensive pathology will take two to three weeks. My medical oncologist's concern is that the tumor was larger than expected (and therefore in a range of … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: Meeting with my medical oncologist
Breast cancer Round 2: The liminal space of waiting
Too often in my life when things are hard, I just want them to be OVER. That's because waiting times can be difficult. I can imagine all kinds of scenarios. And in the past I've had trouble getting negative, worrying thoughts out of my mind. But this time, to my surprise, I'm doing so much … Continue reading Breast cancer Round 2: The liminal space of waiting
Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
You know how when you get concerning news you can go straight into anxiety? Well, that's been my rollercoaster for a couple of months. It started with a concerning EKG at my cardiologist's office in February. She set me up for an echocardiogram to see if there was something that needs attention. Plus she wanted … Continue reading Trying not to fall into the FEAR pit
My Word for 2022
So what's my word for 2022? It's a verb, one that seems obvious for the pandemic.
eddies and currents 